Total word count: 24,619
After a triumphant start to the week, my word count has fallen significantly behind my goal projection (still 3,000 words short).
Trying to write when you’re in a flare:
There are several fairly legit reasons for my flagging. I had my first PHYSIOTHERAPY (can I get an Amen?!?) on Thursday, which was a really positive experience albeit completely bizarre… Due to the nature of my pain, any physio I receive is obviously going to be somewhat, er… intimate. Seriously: I had about a two-minute conversation with my physiotherapist while her finger was just casually in my vagina. That’s how I roll now, apparently. She told me I have some tightness in the muscles near the entrance, which is as I expected, but also some ‘adhesions’ where the fascia has sort of knotted – just like I predicted in my first blog post! Whilst it wasn’t as painful as I had anticipated at the time, I really suffered for it the next day. I’m going to be going to her for internal massage about once a month, I believe, while I work at home with pelvic floor relaxation, diaphragmatic breathing, and dilators. For a girl who used to try to ignore my anatomy at all costs, this is somewhat of a change of heart, as you can well imagine (but please don’t).
Another possible reason is that I think the Dihydrocodeine Continuus (slow-release) is starting to accumulate in my system. Whilst my pain is slightly less severe, the main reason I suspect this is because I am drowsy all the live-long day. I feel about three blinks from sleep at any moment, which is making writing doubly difficult. Hoping I can manage to keep functioning ok, otherwise it’s back to the pain specialist to ask for my drugs to be tweaked yet again. To be honest, I think we’re rather running out of options…
In other news, I missed Thankful Thursday again! I’m a terror… Here is my belated 5:
- Colouring books: stress relief that makes you feel like you’re eight years old again. The dream!
- http://www.8tracks.com (especially the acoustic instrumental playlists – great for writing background music)
- Cat gifs: guaranteed to make you smile no matter how bad you feel.
- Singing: what a joy and a peaceful release of stress.
- The NHS: Although admittedly it has been quite a long wait, I am not having to pay to see the physiotherapist privately. This is a huge blessing as my need for physiotherapy rather precludes my employability at the moment…
Hoping to hit 27,000 words by the end of tomorrow. Wish me luck!