Happy Thanksgiving to my American readers and friends! Hope you had a wonderful celebration of all the blessings in your life. Here’s 5 things I’m giving thanks for this week.
- A pain-free day. Yes, you read that correctly. A pain. Free. Day. My pain specialist (blessings be upon her!) prescribed me some alternative painkillers in the same category as ibuprofen (still NSAIDs, but not ibuprofen per se), which I have been instructed to take twice daily. And yesterday, I had a day of next to no pain. Well, a day of no pain. It’s just so weird to say that I feel I should qualify it; like I must have made it up! But it really happened folks. And it was lovely. I didn’t do any of the things I’d said I’d do in my ’30 Things’ blog – I didn’t run a mile or dance all night or have rampant sex – for many reasons, but namely because that would be bloody stupid. All my life now, I plan to use my spoons wisely and well. Even if and when I am cured, I refuse to put myself in the situation where my body gets stressed and thinks to itself, ‘What did I usually do when I was stressed out? I KNOW. Take it out on her vagina!’ So yesterday I took it easy, and it made for a peaceful and promising start.
- My Mum. She is the most incredible burnt-out lady you could ever wish to meet. She sleeps a lot because she’s exhausted (anyone who knows me will appreciate how legitimate a response this is to all that our family has been through!), yet she still made time when I had a melt-down this week to stay up with me and cuddle me through it. She is the most exceptionally caring person, and I love her more than a human could love anything in this world. She is my best friend, and always will be. Love you best in all the world, Momma!
- My Grandma. This week I have especially been missing my Grandma, particularly because I have come to the point in the novel where I am fleshing out the character most inspired by her. She left a gaping hole when she passed away a year and a half ago, and I am still sad she’s not here every single day. But I am so grateful I made time to forge such a close relationship with her. We’d text or call most days, especially in the last year of her life, and her sense of humour and unfaltering nosiness never failed to brighten my day! I am so grateful to carry her with me in my blood and spirit, and thank God every day for the chance to have known and loved her as I did.
- My novel progress. I know I’ve been quiet on this front for a while, and that’s because I have been royally ticked off that I have missed the window for recovering the pace of my NaNoWriMo project. There is now no way I will hit 50,000 words by the 30th November, due to increased pain levels, other health complications (cheers, codeine and friends for one of the least fun weeks ever), and a couple of pressing commitments that have taken over my mind. HOWEVER, I have still written 30,000 words more than I would have done if I hadn’t committed to National Novel Writing Month, and I am so proud of what I have achieved on that score. The novel really feels like it’s burrowing deeper now, fleshing out and becoming more mature. I’m purposely ignoring the little voice in my head telling me my writing’s rubbish (it’s the same voice that tells me I can’t sing and I don’t look good in skirts). I’m loving the journey, and I can’t wait to see where it takes me. One thing’s for sure: this novel will not go unfinished!
- The opportunity to sing. On Saturday, I will have the immense privilege of singing for a good friend of mine, in a concert she has organised to raise money for the African orphanage she will be working in as of February. I am so proud of her as a human being, and it is an utter delight to have been asked to help out in this way. On a personal level, recently I have been really lacking confidence in my voice, and when I don’t feel comfortable to sing, an avenue of joy is blocked off in my life. For that reason, I say thank you for the music; for giving it to me. Combine that with the opportunity to do some good, and it makes for something to be truly grateful for!
Hope you all have a good week.